lost !

This world's just so small . Still i wonder , how people get lost like anything. You get no clue where to find him/her. Amazing , isnt it . Most importantly when you've been seeking for like a year or so, and still got no hint as to where the person is. Again, there is so much the one who seeks can do , and there are boundaries that stop him from doing so. Thoughts, always play in an indisciplined way. What if , the person really meant to not see you for the rest of their life . Amazing , how could that be ? Or , is it ? THOUGHTS .. THOUGHTS .. better dont think too much , ELF .. or you are doomed.

I was just with my old old goodie goodie emails , when some thoughts came into my mind as some emails caught my attention. Those were the only emails , that have so long impacted my intuitions regarding some virtues in life , and to which , i ever valued since then.

I met wonderful people who added up , who taught me things ( you might have realised by now , i am a good learner ) . I know my journey is like purposeful , but again , without a destination. Rather , is it rationale to search / keep on searching ? Should i overcome my thoughts ? Should i worry about the LOST ? Should i keep on writing things so that eventually one day , i run short of words .. and ... and ..
and ... ( damn! i m indeed runnin' sort of words already ) .

Let me share one poetry from a long time email .

Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

If this be error and upon me proved,I never writ, nor no man ever loved

ELF TRAUMA

One two three , One two three ..
the march of the troops ahead
the sounds of the tapping feet
the thunderstorm with a grrr ..

u talking to me ?
i look up
the sun hid behind the clouds
the stars dont show up
i see darkness ..
and i remember IRON MAIDEN :
someone's always there.

i run back to my room
see my reflections on the mirror
i see NOT me .
i make faces at me
my reflection smacks me
dang! that was NOT me .. i move away

i walk , i play ..
mindless walk , mindless game
i see myself
try to understand
within myself
i try to reprimand

i fear no death
i fear no monster
i fear no fear
i fear only me.

places i visit .. people i meet
life i lead .. words i speak
intuitions i follow .. rationales i swallow
irrational - thats me
ELF - the "traumatized" _i*i_

where i am!

Nothing can be better than this.

I was just watching some of my old concerts. and it was ONE big file. Dont know where i got all my spirits alive , and with VCD clipper to cut the clips , VCD cutter to change the filename extensions from *.dat to *.mpg , and using the windows movie maker with many video effects .. finally i managed to upload two of my songs , plus , a small preview of the concert. :)

I hope you do like it . Here are the link . I thought of not embedding it here . Please follow the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J8glNH-k9rk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARrkRpBRXoU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JtBKZuJf6Y0

iNSANITY

harebrained ideas!
movies with psychic energy!
obsessive compulsive disorder!
unearthly intellections!
platonic love!
workaholic!
dipsomaniac!
overly pragmatic!
believer in " to err is human: forgive is divine "
unusually humorous!
very positive!
purposeful!
psychic trauma!
pandemonium state of mind!
stopped taking life literally!
weirdo me!


I dont suffer from INSANITY : I enjoy every part of it. :)

Why do GIRLS lose the GAME ?

Just few days back, encountered a video. Then opened an account in youtube , and uploaded it.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWqKa1qMM-Y

... and no longer than an hour, got a comment. at least an appreciation. I was wondering over the game the guy and the girl played in the VIDEO. The state of mind, they both are in .. was in perfect match. The smile both possess , and the attraction to the opposite sex is extremely observable. And, gradually the guy starts getting the idea. The idea of him being the superior among the sexes. The idea of him doing something that could be socially acceptable , and not the girl. See for yourself .. why the girl lost the game!!!

:)

kiss me quick!

Ingredients : -
- 4 cl vodka (cranberry)
- 2 cl apfelkorn liqueur
- 7 cl tonic water (schweppes)
- 8 cl apple juice
- 8 cl ice cubes

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Use a "In glass" for Kiss Me Quick drink recipe

Mix in a highball glass.
Serve in "Highball Glass " Garnish: No
Ingredients: vodka (cranberry). apfelkorn liqueur. tonic water (Schweppes). apple juice. ice cubes.

Astrology!

I never believed in horoscopes, when I realized this month it was proving true :)

Wow, you knew you were a lucky duck, but as this month starts, you are luckier than ever when it comes to romance. On the 1st, 2nd and 3rd, you must have done something special with your tail feathers, because everybody is checking you out. And they like what they see! You like them, too. Hey, that's great. On the 7th, you're padding your nest with water lilies and soft, sparkly things, and you might have a visitor very soon! They'll love what you've done with your nest, so don't worry. On the 12th, things could turn serious. Wow! You sure swim quickly, ducky! On the 17th, take a little break. You can't be in romance mode all the time, you know. You may need to compromise on the 21st -- but you like it, don't you? Admit it! You solve a romantic problem on the 25th, and on the 30th, you very likely get a romantic prize. Like a kiss! Quack!

Shall i speak more ! My last poem ( i feel death ) was thought of on the 17th .. ;)

i feel the death - II

Delusory as it seemed
the king left his throne
someone found him alone
dreaming , searching , wishing
all for a moan
like an angelic beauty it shone
right above his head
the man realised he wants to live
only for a purpose
tricky it seemed to be
even fate paid no mercy
deception never spared him
perception never had been so deeper
obliteration of his journey there
the low man could no longer feign
he knew he was lonesome again
he realised he was dead again
and death came back to him a million times !!!

The first part >>> i feel the death - I

Astronomy!

As i m listening to Metallica's Astronomy : i have got thoughts like never before. Enormous giants NASA , SETI and plenty other for SPACE missions n Extra-Terrestial search missions are all in my mind. People have hugely invested into these , and i am a no escape to being a member at BOINC too ( Berkeley Open Infrastructure for Network Computing ). SETI@home is my concern there.

SETI@home is a scientific experiment that uses Internet-connected computers in the Search for Extraterrestrial Intelligence (SETI). You can participate by running a free program that downloads and analyzes radio telescope data.

My profile @SETI can be viewed from MY PROFILE . Well i started a TEAM , a pity that i am the only member . I dont believe people work for nothing but again a pity i do :) Here is the link for my TEAM . If you are reading this , and if you feel like using the processing of your PC when its idle , i would request you to join " Himalayan Voyage to SETI ( from Nepal )". I have had 358 hours of my CPU time for the project. Though recently stopped , as i write this i know i am going to start it from tomorrow again.

Well, i was about to talk about my sentiments to ASTRONOMY , and i ended up with all marketing. OF course , marketing for no $$$ , and thats the best part. I had always been fascinated by STARS, MOON , SUN-RISEs/SETs , blue sky , satellites moving on a clear sky .. counting stars , making visual arts at the SKY on a clear night. LOL , was that enough for my astronomical knowledge. haha

Literally , i would like to take my STAR to MOON oneday , sip some drinks below the moonshine and be on cloud nine.

Let me end up with a beautiful saying:

The most incomprehensible thing about the universe is that it is comprehensible. - Albert Einstein