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hey there....

hey "ELFTRAUMA-clone [ the blog itself ]".

Welcome to my BLOG WORLD! BLOG UNIVERSE! whatever you wish it to be called, but a part of me.

A theoretical role of ELF/EREBUS/PALINDROME in this BLOG is to excite this feeling within you. A feeling of life! and mind you, you remember yourself(the GOD within yourself) the most either when you are drunk, or when you are in trouble. Me frequenting less means my life has been normal nevertheless. And i am not a pessimist ever! :) It so happens, that what you are NOT, you happen to portray it even better. Believe me, it is true! : )

And many many thanks for your kind words scribed on such a beautiful poem. I have bestowed(is it the correct word?)YOU with full privilege. You can delete[but i hope not] my posts if they seem to be in contrary to what i am! BUT THEN, thats all i have you see. LOL , if i had my wife who would be troubled on some 3/4 moons i'd be having time and often... i guess i wouldnt have been writing it all on literature :) i hope you agree with me on that!

Whatever it is, you get to know me more and i get to know ppl from comments. Thats the whole idea about this blog. MAKE FUSS and BE HAPPY! isnt it ? I am happy at least i make a fuss out of my mind and it comes out as a scribble. It feels good though!

Anyway, there is no point in me writing this blog entry except welcomin' you to my small world, my BLOGDOM!

Do enjoy your stay here! :_)

.......so says my blog !

Hey there Mr. Elf / Erebus ! whoever you are ...I HAVE A COMPLAINT TO MAKE .


Why you remember me only when u got to whine ?
why im updated in a frustrated frame of mind?
am i your blog or a punching bag?
am i the blog of a youth or an old hag?

Why most of the posts dont make a sense to me?
why i have to rack my brains,when all i want is to glee ?
why your poem says...FCUK YOU, insanity,Ifeel the death,and killing oneself ?
Oh i need some humour here My dear ELF!

I'm burdened down by your "delusions" and "detachments"
please make me light and listen to my 2 cents .
I need more of "colors of life " and your "lily"
Some more of "Road fiesta" and talks silly :)

freakin' reality!

Why is *reality, or so called always so daunting ? I question myself and many others! Well , there are people who cant face reality, and there are ones, who pretend to. There are every one who face reality on their own terms, and in general, this applies to all of us!

Now what u call reality is a fiction on my terms. So what you call facin' is a pretense to me! What you think is a mere thought and what you act is a lie!

A little background into what i have been doing all this week: "SEGMENTATION FAULT" : thats all what i have been debugging! GOD DAMMIT! I was writing an interpreter in C , and all and often i get this message on my SCREEN. More frustrating was when the code that i developed in my CYGWIN machine just didnt work in the CENTOS platform the professor wanted to put our code into. Later on, after lots of cigarettes , found out that the problem was with appending '\0' to the end of the string! Why on Earth do they NOT make a common error type on every god damn systems! Nevertheless, talked with my professor about it ,corrected it and submitted it (though incomplete). I hope to get a passing grade for this course! thats all! and seriously, i have revitalized and gained a lot from that project. You never know, i might come up with a new programming language with a set of grammar : supporting NEPALI UNICODE! Time and Deadlines and other tons of work has always been a problem for me, and once i even thought, i should remove "ability to work under pressure" from my resume! :P I hope i dont remove it : as i have plenty workplaces to apply further! : )

Got 3 presentations scheduled, a research paper to be completed by next weekend! Oh what a life to take! BUT, hope it counts on the LONG RUN ! i hate this phrase " on the long run" . It just seems, you are running in LONG and *longing for only! :P FRUSTRATIONS , thats what i call it!

Anyways, DOESNT it feel good when you have encouragement from your loved ones? OH YES, it does! DAD says : Do good and God will help you! I say : you support me , i will do good! GOD: He's just my belief! You are my better belief!

Having said that, i cannot ignore the fact that i am completely drunk now , with a blend of vodka with the tonic water that HY-VEE INC provides me with! I aint seeking an excuse for this blog, cos you aint my wife, are you ? I hope, by the time, my wife gets to know me OR i have my wife alongside with me, i wont be frantically blogging like this on every rants i have to make. RATHER be discussing it with her, and which i believe, she would LOVE pacifying my frustrations with her LOVE! :P cant wait for that day actually. BUT again , reality .. is reality.. and my wife alongside with me , is just a fiction to me NOW! :)

OK . enough of this rants, *without a backspace* now! Till i have a good morning, snoring ( sorry i dont, but i think thats the way you sleep like a ____ , dont know what ) ... the night out, you have a great day or night , wherever you are .. and whatever time you are reading this blog on!

GOOD DAY YA ALL! TAKE CARE

Erebus

Amidst a shadow, an object crosses the thin line of boundary between reality and fiction. The literary figure evolves out of the dark and it doesn't know what it is to be called. "EREBUS" , He chuckles! Thats what he calls himself. A mystery: the world is to him, a myth to the world: he is! They just don't go together! He tries finding his way back from the literature he germinated. Little does he know, the thought(n) thought(v) couldn't be modified. He better learn to live with light. He better turn optimistic. The world just seemed too much a heaven for him. He just loved darkness. Would he adapt? Would he rather live on with the norms people set in? He would rather be normal, much normal than you had expected (even more?).

He was clad in black armor when he "evolved", if that is the word that describes how he was born. He hated his outfit so immediately got a nice tee. Erebus looked a gentleman now.

[ The author thinks he will continue the story later , as he is just feeling sleepy now of having finished his *not-so-easy assignment that is due tomorrow , after having worked almost a week! (4 days to be precise) ]

In the song Serenade to Music (written by shakespeare, song composed by Ralph Vaughan Williams) refers to Erebus, saying:

"The man that hath no music in himself,
Nor is not mov'd with concord of sweet sounds,
Is fit for treasons, stratagems and spoils;
The motions of his spirit are dull as night
And his affections dark as Erebus:
Let no such man be trusted."