freakin' reality!

Why is *reality, or so called always so daunting ? I question myself and many others! Well , there are people who cant face reality, and there are ones, who pretend to. There are every one who face reality on their own terms, and in general, this applies to all of us!

Now what u call reality is a fiction on my terms. So what you call facin' is a pretense to me! What you think is a mere thought and what you act is a lie!

A little background into what i have been doing all this week: "SEGMENTATION FAULT" : thats all what i have been debugging! GOD DAMMIT! I was writing an interpreter in C , and all and often i get this message on my SCREEN. More frustrating was when the code that i developed in my CYGWIN machine just didnt work in the CENTOS platform the professor wanted to put our code into. Later on, after lots of cigarettes , found out that the problem was with appending '\0' to the end of the string! Why on Earth do they NOT make a common error type on every god damn systems! Nevertheless, talked with my professor about it ,corrected it and submitted it (though incomplete). I hope to get a passing grade for this course! thats all! and seriously, i have revitalized and gained a lot from that project. You never know, i might come up with a new programming language with a set of grammar : supporting NEPALI UNICODE! Time and Deadlines and other tons of work has always been a problem for me, and once i even thought, i should remove "ability to work under pressure" from my resume! :P I hope i dont remove it : as i have plenty workplaces to apply further! : )

Got 3 presentations scheduled, a research paper to be completed by next weekend! Oh what a life to take! BUT, hope it counts on the LONG RUN ! i hate this phrase " on the long run" . It just seems, you are running in LONG and *longing for only! :P FRUSTRATIONS , thats what i call it!

Anyways, DOESNT it feel good when you have encouragement from your loved ones? OH YES, it does! DAD says : Do good and God will help you! I say : you support me , i will do good! GOD: He's just my belief! You are my better belief!

Having said that, i cannot ignore the fact that i am completely drunk now , with a blend of vodka with the tonic water that HY-VEE INC provides me with! I aint seeking an excuse for this blog, cos you aint my wife, are you ? I hope, by the time, my wife gets to know me OR i have my wife alongside with me, i wont be frantically blogging like this on every rants i have to make. RATHER be discussing it with her, and which i believe, she would LOVE pacifying my frustrations with her LOVE! :P cant wait for that day actually. BUT again , reality .. is reality.. and my wife alongside with me , is just a fiction to me NOW! :)

OK . enough of this rants, *without a backspace* now! Till i have a good morning, snoring ( sorry i dont, but i think thats the way you sleep like a ____ , dont know what ) ... the night out, you have a great day or night , wherever you are .. and whatever time you are reading this blog on!

GOOD DAY YA ALL! TAKE CARE