i m not a pessimist

i m not a pessimist - elf

the day you fled
the day you let me live
meant something i didnt understand
and now i realise
i have been eluding myself
all this time and again
i believed you were the only ONE
dont know if patience is losing my grip
or am i having a flip i cant resist any longer
certainly , one thing i am not subject to change
you are no more with me
you were never mine
and i was a fool to act as if

i got more powers now , i got more strength
its certainly your LOVE that has led me believe
we are not made for each other, we never were
and my belief has got even stronger now
i m all alone with no vow
thats the real me , when i realise that
again the journey begins, a grace i have to meet
i know i will never ever think again
i will feel it from my heart.
cos i realise i m never a good lover
but always a good friend
and i remain an optimist always!

PS: bravo! i finished it at last, it has been 3 days i was adding up lines. DAMN! the outcome is so pathetic. Please tolerate or forget it. i think i m fucked upon by this word called "LOVE" , have been thinking too much. I vow not to think again. :)